Muffled Jatters.

A Post Entitled I do need luck.

∞ posted 5 days ago

Life hasn’t been going on too smoothly. Yikes.

So I’ve been fully occupied with the BIG public exam and oh gosh, I just can’t wait for it to be over. Counting the days till it is and I’m sure the boyfriend is doing exactly the same thing. We have things planned out already and let me tell you, its uncountable. Even I can’t remember anymore.

Note to self; List down after SPM activities with sayang.

But of course it involves being with him 24-7. Literally. Till we get so bored of each other. lol. But of course some me time as well and days with the baby girls. So yeah, a few things planned out. Shopping, movie marathon with the girls, sleepovers, enrolling in dance classes. And the list goes on and on. Heres hoping that he’ll be free enough to be my dance partner :) Oh and theres been talks about a road trip with the sweeties. Well, i’ve been doing all the talking. Haha, but they’re up for it. We’re going to try new things together. Prom dresses and stuff. Everyday with each other right until new year. And with one of the amigos already set with a driving license, we can go to distance. Err, if thats ok with you Sarah? Hee :) Eii, so excited.

Well the papers was okay. Add maths paper 2 however, slightly depressing. Its ok. Its best for me and everyone to put our best foot forward and look forward to whats next. Better stop blabbing.

Back to studying, be back soon. Kiss kiss,

A Post Entitled Dear YOU

∞ posted 3 weeks ago contains 1 note

I actually laughed reading what was meant for me.

I am happy. Wait, I am very happy. He makes me happy. And I know you know how I feel. I’m not denying it. You had this whole fairytale life with him. Aww, it was totally sweet. I know, you told me. Every perfect detail. And at that time, every bone in my body went in aww for you guys. I swear. That was your special memory with him. It was your moment. He made you happy. You made him happy. I know. You told me, he told me, they told me.

But wait, whats all this trash talking? You think I bitch about you? Wake up call princess. Everytime, anyone tried to bitch about you to me, I would defend you. Should I repeat that? I DEFENDED YOU. Probably because I thought we were still friends. We had a lot in common and I seriously thought you sincerely wanted to be my friend. When everyone told me not to. When everyone told me the only reason why you’re friends with me is because you want something. Even when there was prove that they could be right. Yeah, all that crap. But yet, I was still friends with you. Heck, I even defended you. Even up to just now I thought we were. Well, apparently now I guess we’re not anymore. I don’t care what you think anymore. I don’t care what you think I said about you. I don’t care if you hate me.

But let me just get the story straight here.

1. Your relationship with him, ended a year ago. And you’re saying I’m a cradle snatcher because he fell for me? News flash. What WAS yours isn’t YOURS anymore so you can’t really label me with that sweet cheeks. If you two were really together, and you guys broke up because of me then thats a whole different story. He WAS with you. How can I possibly be the cradle snatcher? And you call me pathetic? Please. Who’s the one going on and on about you-know-who when apparently, you told me you’ve moved on and you would support me in whatever i choose to do. tsk tsk.

2. You didn’t bother about our relationship for months already? LAUGHING OUT LOUD. So you’re actually admitting that you were bothering us? So the whole manipulating thing is true? :O HAH.

3. And whatever you said about me or think I so called said about you? Hah, You get your story straight. I have no idea where you’re getting this from.

I’m not about to start a blog war here and i don’t have time for your monkey business. Actually, I don’t even have time to reply to you but I did it because I wanted to make things clear and I’m here to defend myself. I’m not trying to pick a fight here so yeah. Just drop it.

A Post Entitled Game over for you.

∞ posted 3 weeks ago

Emotions overwhelm me all the time. I’ve been very happy lately, because of my loved ones.

But everytime you pop up, those happy and serene feelings i get just subsides. Usually I just keep it all inside and forget about it because I know I’m wrong. And I do feel guilty. But wait, why the hell should I feel this way? I didn’t come running in and became the cradle snatcher. Destiny and fate obviously had plans for me and what makes me happy. I feel you, I really do. But why do i have to feel terrible when i’m obviously so happy? I’m always the people pleaser. Well not anymore. I’m going to do what I want to and keep whats already and obviously will be and hopefully forever will be mine. Should i feel guilty? Is karma going to bite back? I don’t know, and in this case. I don’t care. So there. Just let me keep this almost fairytale like reality for once.